Need to vent? Vent away.

I’M SO TIRED…

of myself.

blahblahblahblah kay.

Maybe this was for the best. Maybe it’s better that I just give up on you. (Psh, how many times have I said that).. Ugh, life is unfair.. But I guess I just have to force it. ..I’m letting you go, but that doesn’t mean I’m not in love with you anymore, &.that I’m just going to stop loving you..
Maybe you are not the one. Maybe it’s not the right time BUT there’s plenty more fishes in the sea… You might be the best I ever had. But there’s a bigger, prettier, better fish out there. I need to open my eyes. I’ll still be real though. This is going to be tough, but I have to keep trying.
I’ll give myself chance to be happy again. The amazing me.a couple years back that just didn’t care. I’ll be strong..I will be.

Oh Gosh.

So. this is pretty much where I can vent..

Anyways, it’s been like 2-3 days since I actually talked to one of my best friends. I really don’t know what’s going on. I wish I knew what is really going on if or whether I did something wrong. I can’t believe this is happening. I don’t want to lose a very good, great, understanding friend. I really miss her.. but I can’t really get through her. I just hope this is nothing big. This is just.. Sigh. Sad.

Carnival.

I saw him today.
He was there.
I saw him.
I saw the only love of my life.
I saw my Shona, Pepper, Muffin